It’s 5 in the morning and I just got home. The past one week or so has been amazing beyond words. Everyday was filled with joy and not a single day of sorrow (except, of course, that few hours that I spent at my gram’s). I realized so much within this short one odd week

1. I realized that I am ever addicted to Pokka Green Tea. Not a day without it. Cos I know I won’t be able to enjoy it after I go back to Canada. :(
2. I realized I do miss Canada a little. Maybe cos of their Spring-y type of weather when it’s not too hot. Unlike Sg’s weather just now, I almost died outside.
3. I realized I miss Canada even more because Cookie’s not with me. I am not used to having a dog around the house that doesn’t stick to me. Snowie sticks to my mommy and only looks for me for sayang.
4. I realized there can be really rude and ignorant people in Sg who will just stare the nuts outta you even though you stare back at them. Damn fucking annoying!
5. I realized that some people will never change. Like my mom, my dad, my sister and my brother. Cos they still love me as much! And how can I forget my boyf? :)
6. I realized I need my hand sanitizer much! I carry it everywhere I go and I use it so much that boyf thinks I’m obssessed. (Habit can!!!!)
7. I realized many people don’t care anymore. It’s their choice and it’s my choice. Ultimately, I don’t question your looks (pretty or ugly), your clothes, and your doings so don’t question mine.
8. I realized that I seriously need $$. Damn, it most definitely sucks not to have a job. I know I can find one if I want but this is my summer hols, I don’t want to spoil it by working. Moreover I won’t be back next year so…. Sigh.
9. I realized how hypocritical I am and how I sometimes hate myself for being such an ass. I don’t understand how anyone can love someone flawed like me unconditionally. The next time I list about my realizations, I would have to find out from people who love me why they love me so.
10. I realized it was really a shame I didn’t watch the first Transformers. I would have loved it as much as I love the second part, that’s for sure. Because right now, I am totally in love with Bumblebee. His big blue eyes, OMG.
11. I realized I can get a little crazy over Channing Tatum. I think boyf has heard me mention CT about 10 times (or more) today. Mmm, I didn’t know CT’s in Public Enemies too. Hello, Johnny Depp and CT, cannot don’t watch man!!
12. I realized taxi uncles got six sense. If you say that the cab won’t stop for you, it won’t stop for you even if it’s ‘For Hire’. Stupid uncle!!!
13. I realized if I don’t effing sleep now, it’ll definitely screw up my perfectly-no-jet-lag life.

Penang was amazing did I not say? And I promised pictures, did I not? I feel retarded because I haven’t had the chance to “filter” the pictures and upload them to Photobucket yet. It’s a rather anal job you know? I shall keep delaying until I have 3 events then I’ll post all up here at once. Yup, I shall do just that.

xoxo

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Huh?

Sometimes I get really skeptical about life and today is prolly one of those days. It’s not like I don’t know what I want in life. It’s not that I have no say in my own life. And it’s not like I need to sacrifice for anyone (yet). So why am I still so skeptical? It’s prolly rhetorical to say that life doesn’t always go your way but I still have to say it b/c that is the truth. Life is so tough when you are constantly judged based on your credentials, gender, race, physical appearance, etc. And life gets harder when you care about these judgements. It’s really amazing how much one person’s comment can make another depressed/happy. I don’t know what I’m trying to get at with this segment of the post, it just came to me while I am having one of those sleepless nights. Stressful yet unsure-what-I’m-stressing-about nights.

What a boring entry! Boo..

Anyhoo, I will update on my trip to Penang soon! :D And and and the awesome day I spent with Jasmine, Meihui, baby Trev, Qiaolin, Lionel and Kelvin.

Last but not least, I miss Cookie very much :(

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1785.) I will never be happy with my weight

(via blogsecret)

guys, just like you’ll never be satisfied with your muscles! it’s all the same. believe me.

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twentyone:

so i’ve been dropping entries like tweets or reblogging other Tumblrists’ stuff here. i just don’t see how lengthy blog posts or my personal mumblings are any cooler than short, to-the-point entries. i mean it’s not like my life is picture-ful at this moment and well, not like pictures will make me look any more fun. i think i’m nearing the ‘why the hell do people blog’ age. haha. anyway, recently i’m really into blog hopping. and no, i don’t hop to bloggers who blog about how their lives suck but to bloggers who do photography and whatnots, who flood their blogs with inspiring quotes and who update with relevance. i am just not so into talking about myself anymore. that and i’m drowning in many overdued readings which i just can’t bring myself to complete! i am a busy woman (or so i wish to think).

a tweet-like update: i was watching a film about the Bermuda Triangle. i love mysteries, what can i say! i wish i could learn more about all these “impossible to manifest” mysteries. but really, i have other priorities.

ok, off to Fabutan.

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