Fall thus far

(Original photo via boy kicks boy)

First half of fall has really been challenging. The weather has already turned berserk & it’s just a matter of time before it starts snowing. Also, not to mention fall is insanely packed with festivities! From Labor Day to Clubfest at Mac to Thanksgiving to Deepavali to Oktoberfest to my birthday :P to Homecoming to Halloween. It’s been non-stop! Fun or not I can’t really tell.

With that aside, school has been hella busy. Midterms drive people nuts and on top of that we do gatherings for MSA to keep Singaporeans and Malaysians in town close to home. Of course the coziness can only go so far. Many (I think) has been whitewashed and that doesn’t please me at all. And we cannot forget fall is a flu season. Although I did not personally get “the flu”, migraines and sinus problems have already started haunting me. Just absolutely maniacal but I’m sure I’ll laugh (or cry) it off.

And when my birthday comes, I always get this mixed feelings but they always end up positive and grateful. I must admit, however, that I kinda miss having tons of people celebrating with me. Haven’t had that in awhile I don’t quite remember how it feels like anymore. Nevertheless I am still awfully grateful for the thoughtfulness of my closest friends here in Canada. Three cheers! :)

Anyway, the blues never fails to get to me when it comes to reality. I am constantly reminded of how far away I am from home, my comfort zone. Summer was great and I have many reasons for that. It has been awhile since I felt “at home” and summer holidays reminded me of just how that feels. I was closer to my family, closer to my boyfriend, closer to some good-to-keep friends and it was just heartwarming. Of course I also realize that many of these people only come back to you when you’re around and when you’re far away, they don’t remember you. It saddens me everytime I think about it but I get over it because I’m quite used to how that feels already. That and I think keeping in touch is mutual. lol. But this does tell true friends apart, doesn’t it? Many ‘firsts’ I don’t get to see, to hear, to know but I guess it’s all right. It’s a price to pay to be away from home.

Something euphoria perhaps? Boyfriend, family (hopefully) and my BFFs in Canada will attend my convocation next year. Although I’ve anticipated my bird family to be here during convo but due to some circumstances, that is not happening. I also though B and E could be here for my convo but it’s way too early before NIX so that’s not happening either. I am not too upset about that cos I still have other people close to heart who will definitely make it. (: And everytime I think about Spring 2010, I get excited. Excited cos bird family’s coming in May; excited cos boyfriend’s coming in June and excited cos B and E will be coming in late June. Spring/Summer is always fun! I so cannot wait.

This is prolly a really rare entry. I hardly ever rant about stuff anymore but because I really wanted to try that “read more” insert, and i (by chance) had things to write about thus this entry. haha! Ranting is so rhetorical sometimes, isn’t it?

❤;xoxo